I Think I’m Officially Grown Up
News flash! I am turning 40 in just a short couple of months. I know, I know, you’re wondering how this beautiful brown skin could be 40 years old – let’s chalk it up to good genes and God’s gift of melanin!
As I head into a new decade, I find myself excited. Some people dread hitting these milestones, but I don’t feel that same sentiment. I’m in a place of reflection and gratitude, remembering the goodness of God and how He has used life to turn me into the woman I have become today.
Over 21 years ago I left home and only returned for one summer during my college years. I had grown up in a beautiful Christ-centered family. I adore my parents and am grateful for their leadership in my life. Home was a wonderful place, so much so that I still refer to it as “home.” As I left home at 18, I realized fairly quickly into my freshman year of college that I had become very dependent on my parent’s faith. Paul’s words in Philippians 2:12 set off a light bulb in my head, “Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling…”. It was now time for me to work out my own salvation, I could no longer rely on Richard and Ruth’s faith and their stories of God’s faithfulness. It was finally time for God to take me through some circumstances that would lead me to say for myself that I have experienced how good and kind and loving God is.
Over two decades later and I can tell you without a doubt that He is faithful. I can now recount to you my own stories of how God has worked on my behalf. I don’t have to tell someone how I have “heard” of Him being faithful in providing financially, I can give instance after instance of how God performed financial miracles (big and small) for me. I don’t have to only tell you that the Bible says the Holy Spirit will comfort us, I can tell you how over the course of a year when I felt depressed due to grief, that I could feel the Holy Spirit’s comfort even though the circumstances around me didn’t change. I can easily tell you of multiple doors and opportunities opened up for me that never should have been if you were looking in from the outside. I can tell you that even though certain parts of my life didn’t end up the way I thought they would or dreamed they would, that God took those broken dreams and still made something beautiful.
So, in two short months, I will raise a glass of sparkling cider and toast to 40 and a new decade of life. I will toast to my faith that is sure of what I hope for and certain of that which my eyes can’t see!